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They like me! They really like me!

On Friday night I had a moment where I channeled my inner Mikey’s brothers… You know…

I went back to the school I student taught at to see the Spring Musical, which was Hairspray.

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First, the play was phenomenal. I had NO IDEA how talented my students were but DAMN they can sing.

Second, I went to the play because a) my students emailed me reminding me that I promised I would come see it and b) I missed them terribly. I haven’t seen them since my last day of student teaching, when the world supposedly was about to end and most of them were kept home by their parents, and I miss them terribly.

After the play, I stuck around for a bit to say hi to my 2 students who were in the play. Students who had come to the play to support their friends came running up to me, hugging me and saying how much they missed me. Then the cast came out. My one student, who was always a bit shy in school and barely spoke to me, lit up when she saw me and pushed through the crowd to give me a hug. I told her she was great, and she beamed. Then I saw my other student, who always talked to me and reached out to me in school, and she started crying when she saw me. She tried really hard to not let me see she was crying, but I could tell she was crying, which made it hard to keep myself from getting teary-eyed. She told me it meant so much to her that I came to support her, that I always supported her.

That is when I started finding it hard not to cry. I told her to keep in touch and to keep doing great things, and she gave me a huge hug.

I’ve been psyching myself out of wanting to teach where I student taught, as I know it’s very unlikely that they’ll have the budget or the ability to hire me next year, and I had convinced myself it might be fun to work in a school district with money, technology, and the ability for me to give more opportunities to my students.

But you know what? At the end of the day, my heart is in urban teaching. I want to truly make a difference as an educator, and I pray for the love of Cheese-its that I can work where I student taught. I love and believe in those kids with my whole heart, and I can’t imagine being anywhere else.

Plus… they like me. They really like me!

 

Sometimes you need to splurge a little…

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It’s my birthday week, which means I’m justifying every unnecessary purchase I make by saying, “It’s okay, it’s a birthday present for myself!” Basically this means I’m blowing what’s left of my Christmas money on me, and counting the days til I get paid again! (That’s the downside to working for a university– no pay days over Winter Break!)

Today was my first day back to class after student teaching all last semester. It was odd, surreal, and kind of a mind fuck to be a student again. While I really enjoyed my classes today, I just want to graduate and be in charge of my own classroom again. These next few months can’t go quick enough.

My first class (“The Teaching Professional”) was actually sort of a nice blast to the past. My professor was actually a man who taught a class I took my junior year of high school. Dr. C is an extremely intelligent, eloquent man. His classes were always filled with life lessons, which wasn’t something I always appreciated as a 16 year old. Having him as my teacher again is sort of like having Mr. Feeney as my professor. I feel like I’ve come full circle since high school, and it was really nice to reunite with Dr. C. He gave me a hug at the start of class and expressed his excitement that I’m his student again. I love that man, and I can’t wait to hear what bits of knowledge he has to bestow upon our class in preparation for our entrance to the teaching world.

ANYWAY.

After Dr. C’s class I had about 4 hours to kill before my next class. (!!!) Two of my friends from my Cohort and I grabbed a nice, delicious, healthy Kosher/ vegetarian lunch.

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The following conversation ensued:

Friend 1: “I always wanted to be a vegetarian.”
Me: “I wanted to too but I couldn’t give up my chicken.”
Friend 2: “I wanted to date Johnny Depp. Are we talking about lost dreams?”

That pretty much sums up my friendships.

Then we went to the new University bookstore, which is FUCKING GORGEOUS.

There’s a giant clock on the outside, which you can look through. It’s pretty cool.

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You know what else was cool about the new bookstore?

The $1 clearance area.

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All the books on clearance seemed to be books professors had ordered for classes that were no longer offered. I ended up buying over $150 worth of books for $5.

Then I discovered an “Odd, Curious, Cool” section… and my life was made.

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Yes, that is Goodnight iPad… and the newest addition to my growing collection of children’s books.

It’s possibly one of my favorite things ever.

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I’m probably going to be returning to this section of Barnes & Noble to shop for birthday gifts for the next few months…enjoy.

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I hit the jackpot today, people.

2012: A Year in Review

Tonight is the last Friday night of 2012, exactly one week after the world was supposed to end. A lot has happened in 2012, and I decided to highlight everything significant that happened to me this year, month by month.

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It’s been one heck of a year at GingerSass.

January

Not much happened in January. I turned 22, which was actually a better birthday than my 21st. My friend convinced the bartender at a local bar that I should be given a free bottle of champagne because my 21st coincided with a blizzard and I didn’t get to celebrate. I received a stuffed unicorn and zebra print seat covers from my parents. I, once again, pleaded to Ellen as to why we should celebrate our birthday together and she ignored me. Ya know, the usual.

February

I made it onto PostSecret for the first time. Whitney Houston died and I was devastated so I wrote a poem. Ryan Murphy pissed me off so I wrote him an angry tumblr post turned into a letter, which he never responded to.

March

March was a very important month for me– I STARTED GINGERSASS! (All of the posts posted before March 25th were transferred from my tumblr site.) Fun fact– GingerSass was started because I was pretending to be an investigative reporter at the Sex, Love, and Dating Conference. Also, Adrienne Rich died, which devastated me. A lot.

April

April freaking rocked. Highlights of the month include:

volunteering with NOH8 and later being featured on their website
meeting Frank Warren at my first PostSecret event
saw an opera and a concert in one week
my Poefy (poetry-wifey) was fantabulous in The Vagina Monologues and I wrote about it

May

May was a good month for me. Obama came out in support of gay marriage. I won an award. I graduated college. Life was pretty awesome to me in May.

June

June was an interesting month. I started it out writing about suicide after finding out that the partner of my friend who had committed suicide also committed suicide. I wrote a bunch of 10 Minute Musings for a grad class and reconnected with myself. I came out to my family as a blogger, with the support of Cady McClain, aka Dixie from All My Children. I even inspired her alter-ego, Suzy F*cking Homemaker, to create an internet meme. Suzy also encouraged me to write a post on why I want to be a celesbian…so I did. I also  booked and performed my first paid poetry gig, which was pretty darn awesome.

July

July started off with a roadtrip to Massachusetts with Poefy to the wedding of Taylor and Mike. I basked in the glory of cheeseball goodness. (This post is still one of my most-visited posts, btw.) I fell in love with my job over the summer. I also figured out What Obama Taught Me. I indulged in Restaurant Week. Then I got serious about my blog, invested in an actually site host, got free magnets, and was overwhelmed by the idea of going to BlogHer. I also posted about teacher dress codes, which is also one of my most-visited posts of all time.

August

August started off with me going to BlogHer’12 and MY LIFE CHANGING FOREVER. I made so many blogging friends through BlogHer, and I’m going to (eventually) categorize them on her so you can so who I’m reading. I also won a happy hour party in August and celebrated with wings and food at a local bar with my friends. Woohoo! To top August off, I started my new job, got an apartment to go along with it, and ruminated on why Res Life will always be a part of me.

September

September was an emotional, crazy month. I had an awesome first week of September. I was a national runner up to be the next Verizon Ultimate Insider, mentioned on AfterEllen, and yogurt was on sale. I made it through the one year deathaversary of my friend’s suicide, and I participated in yet another walk for dead people. September was emotional, tough, and trying, but I got through it.

October

October started off with me reflecting on how much I love my car. I also met Jack Hanna, which was a childhood dream come true. I had a kickass lesson on bullying on National Coming Out Day and fell even more in love with teaching. I went to the Dodge Poetry Festival for the first time as an educator, and I helped my students fall in love with poetry. I met Geena Davis and she told me, “You’re changing the world to be a place I want to be in. Keep up the good work.” I saw Melissa Etheridge in concert. I survived Hurricane Sandy, was really upset that Sandy canceled Halloween, and was upset by the whole Sandy experience.

November

November feels like such a long time ago. I participated in NaBloPoMo for the first time and wrote about how I’m a Jersey girl, how Sandy domesticated me, and what Obama’s win meant to me. I also talked about bacon, ghosts, and just how important it was that I found my voice again by going to poetry open mics. I cut my hair, took silly webcam pics, and thought about my future. I ended my first NaBloPoMo experience by being grateful for stickers, and really having peace in knowing that I’m on the right track for what I want to do with my life.

December

December flew by. I think the biggest thing that happened to me this month, right before my student teaching internship ended, was that I realized why I want to teach. I arranged for an assembly for my Creative Writing students, and  it really changed my relationship with them forever. It taught one student to not be afraid to be who she is, and this, in return, encouraged me to come out to her. She then wrote me a note and made me cry. Then the Newtown, Connecticut shooting happened and it hit really close to home, as it was the first school shooting that has happened since I began student teaching. My students asked me if I would take a bullet for them, and I was able to respond honestly and say yes. Student teaching ended, and I managed to make it to the parking lot after school before crying. I got creeped out by the whole Elf on a Shelf phenomenon, but secretly loved my creepy little elf.

2012 was a year of growth. I rediscovered my writing identity, and GingerSass became a very large part of who I am. I’m grateful for the opportunities blogging has given me this past year, and I cannot wait to see what 2013 holds.

Happy New Year, folks! What are you looking forward to in 2013?

PS I’m not sure if I’ll be able to attend or not, but if you’ll be at home this NYE, consider joining in on #Tweetin13. There are prizes, fun people, and it’s hosted by two of my favorite ladies. Get on it!