I haven’t been looking at the November NaBloPoMo prompts this month, which is pretty spectacular considering I’ve been struggling to blog for the past few months. Today, however, I gave the prompts a gander, and today’s prompt made my heart stop.
If you could permanently get rid of one worry, what would it be?
Tonight I received my copy of the latest Post Secret book in the mail. Unlike the other books, I didn’t get this one the day it came out. I didn’t even plan on looking at it tonight, but then I started looking at one page, and one page turned to twenty, and then one hundred, and before I knew it I had finished the book.
Even though I was 19 when the last book came out, I think it’s safe to say that this is the first PostSecret book that I’ve read as an adult.
I’ve met Frank Warren, the mastermind behind PostSecret, not once, but twice. He’s a big part of why I’m a writer today. He was genuinely touched when I told him this past March about how his words had impacted me, and he even shared a thank you note I’d written him with his hundreds of thousands of Twitter followers.
"The World Needs to Hear Your Voice!" (pic & note) pic.twitter.com/xPEoQfhC1G
— PostSecret (@postsecret) March 24, 2014
Yet, despite how large of a role Frank and Post Secret has played in my life, I’ve never cried because of them… Not until I read the latest Post Secret book.
Oddly enough, since about the last time I spoke with Frank in March, I’ve been having some health issues. Without going into too many issues, I don’t know where I stand with my ability to have kids, and I won’t know until V & I actually start trying to start a family, something we won’t be ready to do for at least a few years.
Tonight, I took a picture of one secret in the beginning half of the book that made me cry. It made me feel vulnerable to even take a photo of this secret as something that stood out to me.
Two hours later, as I neared the conclusion of the book, I came to another page that made me bawl my damn eyes out.
Once again, Frank and Post Secret have given me the kick in the butt I need to stay positive and look towards my future. I need to let go of my worry that my future won’t include everything that I want it to. I won’t know what it holds until it gets there.