Today was a day of ups and downs. My post from yesterday has been floating around the internet. I was asked to speak at a University symposium in March. I had Chinese food for dinner. I also found out a panel I was really excited about and had proposed for BlogHer14 was rejected, which ultimately means I can’t afford to go/ justify going to the Conference.
It does hurt a little bit that my panel was rejected, but moreso because I was super excited about a potentially awesome panel discussing the intersection of working in education with one’s blogging identity than the fact that I don’t cope well with rejection. The intersection of various identities is something I’m very passionate about, and education is ingrained in my soul. My kindness will apparently lead to my success so I guess I’ve just got to be kind– and patient– and somehow make this panel happen somewhere, someway.
BlogHer reintroduced me to writing. It introduced me to blogging, and it gave me a source of motivation and inspiration to allow my thoughts and words to grow. I found lifelong friends I wouldn’t have found otherwise. Most importantly, I found the ability to believe in myself and my dreams of being a writer once again. I’m saddened to be saying “No way” to San Jose, but I’m grateful for all that BlogHer has offered me in the years past. Without it, I don’t think I’d be who I am today.