A confessional on why I isolated myself from all my high school friendships
I feel oddly compelled to post something here tonight, but I don’t have anything to say.
Here’s a meme. It was one of the first ones that popped up when I Googled “memes.” (I think it’s kind of accurate as to where my teacher mind is right now.
Back to my ramblings. I’m so ready for it to be summer. I’ll be nannying this summer, moving this summer, and trying not to move much off the couch when I’m home this summer. I’ll also be wearing sneakers a lot, which is something I’ve invested a lot into lately. A LOT. Like I own multiple pairs of shoes that could be considered sneakers that weren’t bought at Payless. If you’ve followed this blog for awhile, you’ll know why this is shocking. (I still suck at exercising, btw.) BUT, back to the importance of this unimportant paragraph, I’ll be wearing comfortable shoes and breathing a bit this summer.
Happy Memorial Day Weekend. <3
Last year, Jenny (The Bloggess) started this beautiful thing called Booksgiving. It started with her wanting to give away 30 copies of her book, Furiously Happy. All her loyal followers wanted to give away books too, so everyone started sharing Amazon wishlists.
I shared my class library wishlist, not expecting much.
Various strangers sent me 18 books for my library.
I was overwhelmed.
This year, I shared my wishlist again. This time, however, it took on a more political tone. I wanted to create a list that will help my students find their worth in our society.
As an English teacher in a district where we don’t always have the money for luxuries like books for a classroom library, I cannot tell you how excited my students were last year to receive new books that they had actual interest in. Booksgiving made a huge difference in my classroom, and it definitely helped my students in ways I didn’t know it could. They’d actually stay after school to look through my library and borrow books. I recently instated a rule where my students must either free-write stories to submit to the literary magazine I run for extra credit or read a book from my class library. The library has gotten a lot of action lately! I always tell my students to tell me what they’re into, or what sort of book they feel like reading. 9 times out of 10 I’m able to match my students with books that they actually enjoy, mostly due to the donations people have been kind enough to make.
Recently, students have been requesting me to find books that help them feel better about themselves, especially since the election. Politics aside, my students are lacking self-worth this year. It’s like they’ve been constantly told they’re not of value, which couldn’t be further from the truth. I’ve been working on an Amazon Wishlist to expand my library with books that can help them find themselves, and see themselves as I see them– as really important, valuable members of not only our classroom, but of society as well.
I shared this on Jenny’s post on the second annual Booksgiving, and didn’t think much of it, hoping to maybe get another book or two to add to my library. My list was ridiculously long, with 65 books, because I’ve been making a huge list to upload to a DonorsChoose project I haven’t gotten around to posting yet.
I just looked at my Wishlist, and it only has 32 books left on it.
That means strangers have purchased 33 books for my class library.
I was overwhelmed last year by 18. I can barely process 33. I’m glad we have a snow day today because I need to process this kindness of strangers.
So, if you’re one of those strangers, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. I keep switching between crying and smiling. My dog thinks I’m crazy. Maybe I am, but jeez. It’s because I keep thinking of how much of a difference these books are going to make.
Thank you for making this teacher cry/smile, and thank you for giving my students a chance. I am eternally grateful.
All my gratitude,
PS To those of you who stumbled upon my site as a result of Booksgiving, if you want to keep in touch/ be internet friends, know that I’ve had writer’s block for about a year. I’m trying to write more on my blog, truly, I am. However, it’s more likely you’ll find me on instagram or Twitter. (I tweet sparingly these days, but that’s something I want to improve on too.)