Note: I started writing this post 5 days ago. Then I stopped. I have a lot of half-written posts in my Saved Drafts folder.
If someone were to measure my 2016 by the amount of blog posts I’ve written, it would be kind to say my year was boring. I’m almost embarrassed to admit I only wrote a mere 8 posts, the majority of which include some level of apology for not writing.
The thing is, if I’ve learned anything in 2016, it was to not apologize.
My 2016 New Year’s resolution was something along the lines of finding peace with those surrounding me. I resolved to care less about what others thought or did, and to focus more on finding my own peace. Truthfully, I was hurting at this time last year. Despite it being one of the happiest times in my life as a newlywed, it was also one of the most isolating times in my professional life. Teaching isn’t always easy, especially when you find yourself surrounded by hormonal, angst-filled teenagers daily. The emotions of my students drained me a bit last year, and my need to escape from them spilled into my need to escape from my peers. Feelings were felt, and I did what I do best– I avoided people. In the Spring, I actively began making changes to my professional life to find happiness again in the profession. While I am not in the place I envisioned myself six months ago, I am honestly much happier with myself as an educator than I was this time last year. Heck, I’m the happiest I’ve been in a long time in so many aspects of my life.
So, it’s time to focus on 2017.
A lot of my Facebook friends have been sharing their words for the year. They’ve all chosen words to represent what they foresee focusing their next year on, words like “determination,” “hope,” or even “focus.” While I love my friends, a lot of their words have been surrounded by fluffy, feel-good words of optimism and excitement. My sarcastic self can’t handle that level of happiness so, instead, my word will be a realistic one: try.
“I’ll try not to hit snooze 8 times.”
“Let me try that solution before whining.”
“Hey, can I try your drink? I thought about ordering it.”
“I try to walk away and I stumble…”
“Try me, bitch. Just try me.”
I’m ready to try again in 2017, and hopefully one of the things I’ll be trying is writing again. I miss it.
Until then… here’s what I’ve been discovering more of this past year: Snapchat. So far, Faceswapping with Adele really has been the highlight of 2017.